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The woman in another place
(Luke 4:38-39; Acts 12:12-17)
by BABETTE FRANCIS, November 2010
There is a mystery about the woman and
there are few clues. I suspect she resented the man because of whom
her husband had left her, but Im guessing because it was how I
would have felt. She must have had a foreboding on that first occasion
when Simon came home without his gear and seemed not to care it might
be lost, swamped by waves or stolen. They had worked hard to save for
it, and now he said vaguely he had left it on the shore. And what
about the boat? she asked. I think Andrew anchored it, but
I'm not sure. Jesus was so wonderful you
should have heard him.
Impatient, she said Well we cant all wander on the beach.
Some of us have to work. Please go and see to the boat. When will I
meet him anyway? Soon, he replied soothingly.
Impressive friend
Of course the visit came at a most inconvenient time. Her mother, who
lived with them, had been sick for days. She was feverish, despite all
the medication. And this was the inopportune time Simon brought his
new friend home. Nor was it just the two of them there always
seemed to be a group of hangers-on whenever she saw them in town, and
they had followed him to her door. Trying to subdue her inhospitable
feelings and anxiety about her mother, she let them in.
She had to admit Jesus was impressive in appearance and his eyes
seemed to look through her as if he knew just what she was thinking.
Why had Simon brought him today of all days? And what a nerve he had,
asking to see her mother. She hoped the room was not untidy she
had not had time to straighten things.
He looked at her mother and observed she had a fever and that it should
be gone. Well, of course she had a fever and of course it should be
gone, but before she had time to voice her irritation at this statement
of the obvious, her mother sat up with a smile and asked if anyone would
like something to eat or drink. Mother, she cried, youre
feverish, you have been very ill for days.
Please lie down. Still smiling, her mother got out of bed saying,
Well Im not feverish now. I feel fine. You must all be hungry
and thirsty, and proceeded to bustle about the kitchen.
The foreboding was even stronger now she had a feeling of dreadful
sadness, as if something
was happening that would change her life forever. But what could she
do? To whom could she appeal? And about what? Before they all left,
the man turned and looked at her as if to reassure her. But she was
not reassured.
So it had come to this shivering in a cave as the wind blew across
the sand. She wasnt even sure she would see Simon, but friends
said he would come to say goodbye before he left. She had seen so little
of him in the last few years, especially after his friend was executed.
Now they were all under suspicion. The doctor later wrote that after
escaping from prison and visiting John Marks house Simon went
to another place. He went to their own house. It was ironic this was
the last place the soldiers would look for him as it was his home, but
he had spent little time there in the last few years. Would he ignore
the danger and come? It was cold and she huddled into her shawl. Would
he ask her to go with him? How could she go? She had to care for her
mother and there was their son.
A shadow fell across the cave and Simon was beside her. She tried not
to weep because she knew he disliked tears, but when she saw how tired
he looked, she could not help crying: Why do you have to go?
Because he asked me, he replied. But why you? There
are so many others .... It has to be me. But
what is to become of me and the boy?, she asked. Even in the darkness
she could sense his smile. The boy is a fine young man,
he said. We have done well. He will take good care of you and
your mother. He is not yet a man, she cried. He
is only seventeen. I had a boat when I was seventeen.
The beginning
Where are you going? Will I see you again? West,
he replied vaguely. And then definitely, Yes, you will see me
again, always. Simon, Simon, does it have to end like this?
She was crying uncontrollably now. This isnt the end. Only
the beginning.
He touched her wet cheek and traced a cross on her forehead. Then he
was gone. The wind blew
from the shore and she could feel the sand stinging her face. Years
later she would hear that Simon had been executed, like his friend long
ago. This is what it might have been like for her, mentioned briefly
as the woman in another place. Or what it might have been
like for me if I had lived in that time.
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